My Dad

 

One month ago my Dad went home to be with his Lord and Savior.  Our God blessed him with 103 years on this earth. He was the last of his 11 siblings to go home to heaven.

He was the best Dad a girl could have. He was a farmer all his life and a mighty good one at that and I feel blessed to have had him and Mom raise me on the farm. It was the best way of life to grow up.  You learn hard work and good values that you carry with you the rest of your life.

He loved the Lord with all his heart and taught us kids to love and fear the Lord .  He made sure we were in church every Sunday unless we were sick. He was a deacon in the church for many years and was faithful and took seriously and fulfilled that role making sure it was pleasing to God in all that was required. He and Mom taught me common sense, how to think for myself, and how to be a useful citizen of society. He taught me how to read my Bible and pray.

As a little girl, quite often he would take me to town with him, which I always looked forward to. On the outskirts of town there was this little place that was open only during the spring and summer months that you could get hamburgers, fries, milkshakes, and of course, ice-cream. They had the best soft ice-cream I’ve ever eaten. It was made with fresh ingredients everyday. They didn’t use the artificial mixes that most make their soft ice-cream with today.  They filled the cones right up and the ice-cream would end up being almost three inches high. My Dad loved those cones. He had to get one every time he went to town.  So of course he would buy me one too. Those are some of the best times I had with my Dad.

Not only was he a strong man with good ethics, he was also a kind and gentle man who would give his shirt off his back to help some in need. When he gave his word he would always do his  best to keep it. He and Mom would give surplus vegetables, meat and eggs away all the time and sometimes even gasoline, we had 3 big 500 gallon fuel tanks on the farm. That’s the kind of people my parents were.

He and Chester, the love of my life, got along very well. In fact they became quite close. My husband’s parents were still in England when Chester and I had started dating, and both my parents kind of adopted him and treated him as if he was one of their sons. They had many a great conversation on many topics, mainly religion and politics.  It was awesome to see them get along so well. Now they’re chatting together again I’m sure. Shortly after my love went home, almost a year ago now, I was with my Dad at Christmas time. He was such a great comfort to me.  I sat there with him and held his hand. He could see I was grieving. He looked into my eyes and said,”What’s wrong?”  I tearfully tried to tell him the best I could that his son-in-law had gone home to be with the Lord. My Dad immediately squeezed my hand even tighter.  He was still my Dad and I was still his little girl and he let me know.  I am so thankful for that. Grieving the two most important men in my life within a little less than a year is very difficult to say the least. I’m also thankful that I got to spend some of his last hours on this earth with him.

My Dad was a good steward with everything that God had given him. He took excellent care of his livestock and his land. He recognized that all he had came from God and not himself. He was a hard worker and would spend sun up to sun down working on the farm. He loved getting that dirt under his fingernails.

He retired shortly after the Lord called Mom home. He moved to the city for a short time and found it was not compatible with him, so he bought a small acreage where he grew a huge garden and raised a few chickens. My kids were very young at the time and he would always had ice-cream Revels, or cookies, or some kind of treat on hand when any of his grandchildren would go and visit.  They all enjoyed when Grandpa would hand out his goodies.

About 12 years ago he started getting dementia and eventually had to move into a nursing home. It was hard to see his memory deteriorate but his love for the Lord never waned. His faith I think became stronger as a result and I praise God for that.

His death for me is kind of bitter sweet. Bitter in the sense that he’s left us and we miss him, but sweet in the sense that he’s finally in heaven with my Mom, the love of his life, whom he was always very close with. He’s finally with his parents and siblings who he loved and missed. He’s with my wonderful, awesome husband who I’m sure was very glad to see him. Finally he’s with his Lord and Savior who he served and trusted most of his life – now that is the best!

I am who I am in Christ as a result of what my Dad and my Mom taught me all my life.  I was always in their prayers and also in the prayers of my Grandparents. I do look forward to the day when I will see my Dad and my Mom again. It will be kind of like old times but much, much better.

I thank God for giving me such a great Dad, and Mom for that matter. I’m thankful I got to spend some of your last hours with you on this earth.  To see you in such peace just before you went home was so beautiful.  Dad, I love you, miss you, and I hope you’re having an awesome time with those you love and have missed all these years, who you are now reunited with.  I know the best thing you’ve experienced since you’ve gone home is seeing Jesus. I’m sure he’s told you, “Well done, thou good and faithful servant.”

See you later, Dad!

 

Set Free From Worldly Cares

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The other day I was paying the natural gas bill and I noticed just the carbon tax alone was exorbitant. I thought to myself this is the kind of thing Chester hates and would always complain about. Then I thought at least he doesn’t have to put up with that kind thing anymore. He’s free from all of that. I have to admit I felt a little envious. I still  have to deal with the bills, and taxes and stuff like that.

He’s free from  lying politicians and corrupt government who everyday infringes on our rights and freedoms and forcefully grabs our money in the form of taxes and fees etc. It seems to get worse and worse each day. He doesn’t have to listen the deceitful media who feed the masses propaganda.

He’s free from watching all the violence, all the pain and suffering that is occurring and all the evil that goes on in the world and it keeps waxing worse all the time. He hates evil. This world it seems is going to hell in a hand basket and it’s not going to change for the better. It will keep getting worse until Jesus comes back.

He’s free from all the sickness and disease and will never again suffer. He will never again go through any pain, or discomfort physically, mentally or emotionally.  He doesn’t have to worry about the weather or all those little things that bog us down on this earth. He’s safe, happy, healthy, and doesn’t have to worry about anything. He’s with Jesus. He left all those worldly cares behind.

Yes it does make me a little envious. I want to be there so badly too. I want to be free as well. It makes feel a little homesick for heaven, my real home. Right now I have one foot there and one foot here.  I will get there but I know not right now. There are too many souls who are lost and suffering that I know God wants me to help.

The time here on this earth till we believers get to go home seems so long but overall our time here is very short, but a vapor compared to eternity. Even one day for me seems like a long time but really it won’t be that long til Jesus comes back to take us all home.

God is loving, patient, merciful and gracious and He wants as many as possible to be with Him but it’s up to us to make that choice.

Joshua 24:15 King James Version (KJV)

15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.

One day I won’t have to be envious anymore because I choose to  be free of all of these headaches this world brings like Chester did. I too will be leaving all the cares of this world behind.  I will be right there with my Chester and all our family enjoying eternity with the Lord.

We both have chosen Jesus because He is the only one who actually promises to provide us a better life after this one. And it’s only through Him that we can be set free from this world and spend eternity in heaven with Him.

John 14:6 King James Version (KJV)

Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

 

Setting Sights Above

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Since my husband, the love of my life, Chester has gone home to be with the Lord, I’ve been thinking more and more about heaven. I did the same thing right after our son Josh was called home but it waned after awhile. Our other children were still quite young at the time and they had to be looked after so I couldn’t spend too much with my head in the “clouds” so it waned after a while.

The other kids are grown now. I don’t have many other distractions so I spend a lot of my time thinking about and learning about heaven and the end times. I feel more motivated now  I think, because my husband and two of our kids are there right now and wonder what it’s like and what they’re doing. I most definitely want to be reunited them and have our whole family together more than anything. Above all I want to spend eternity with God.

Heaven, what a great place. We don’t have to put with all the pain,suffering and corruption of this world. A place of peace, joy, complete love. No war or poverty. It’s a place where there is no sickness or disease, not even any hearing aids or glasses. No wheel chairs or walkers. It’s a wonderful place. It’s a place where there is no tears except for joy. No sorrow, no sadness or depression and definitely it’s place where there will be no more death. We never going have to say good bye to a loved one because they died.

Chester is there right now. He couldn’t be in a better place. Better than on this earth especially the way it is right now and it’s not getting any better.  He’s safe, he’s happy, he’s completely whole physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I’m sure he’s experiencing all kinds of wonderful things we could only dream of here. I could only imagine.

He’s in heaven because he believed that Jesus is the Son of God who loves us so much He came to earth as a man, suffered and died on the cross for our sins, and rose again on the third day and is now sitting on the right hand of the Father in heaven. He believed that  one day Jesus is coming back to get all those believers who are still alive so that we can all live and  reign with Christ for all eternity. He believed that Jesus is the only way to get to heaven.

I believe the same as Chester because that’s what my Bible tells me.  I will one day be with Jesus and I believe both Chester and I will spend forever with our whole family. What a great time that is going to be! Can’t wait!

So yeah I’m setting my sights above knowing that while still on this earth I have work that God still has for me to do.

John 3:16 King James Version (KJV)

16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

The Journey Begins

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It’s been a month and it hurts like heck. I’m so lonely sometimes I want to die. I have this gaping hole inside my heart that feels black and empty. It still doesn’t seem real. How can it be?  A man who takes such good care of himself. Watches what he puts into his body suddenly suffers a stroke, appears like he’s improving and recovering from the stroke then it is discovered it was pancreatic cancer that caused the stroke. And then, all of a sudden without barely and I mean barely within 24 hours of being notified of this devastating news, he deteriorates and he’s gone. All within a 3 week period. It’s all so surreal. Utterly shocking. So bizarre. How could this happen?

You see the love of my life. My man, my beloved husband Chester Fraser went home to be with his Lord and Savior a month ago now, November 2.  We shared everything together. We’ve been together for about 45 years. Married for 41. Now what do I do without him? How can I go on?  I just want to see his face, hear his voice, feel his warm touch. To experience that dry sense of humor of his and to hear his laughter one more time but I can’t. It almost kills me inside. I miss him so much every fiber of my being is literally  in such great pain. I will never be the same again. How do I survive this? Do I survive this?

I know he’s in heaven with Jesus. I know he’s safe and secure. I know he’s with loved ones who have gone on before. I know he doesn’t have to feel pain or sickness anymore. I know he doesn’t have to contend with the evils of this world anymore. I know he doesn’t have to get up early in the morning and drive 100 miles back and forth to work everyday sometimes fighting bad road conditions and nasty weather anymore.  I know he’s happy and content in the arms of Jesus.

But he’s not with me anymore. Sure I have my three kids and they’re great. They’ve been taking great care of me. I don’t know what I would do without them. I have three brothers who have been a great support for me but still it’s not like having your life’s partner, your one flesh, your other half,your spouse, the love of your life next to you. It’s like someone cut off my right arm.

So what do I do now?  The only thing I have to hang on to right now is the hope of being reunited one day to spend eternity with the Lord.  Trusting God one day, one hour, one minute at time sometimes.

Will this pain and agony ever go away? Will there ever be any light at the end of the tunnel. They tell me it will get easier with time.This is a journey I never thought I’d see. A journey I wish I wasn’t on but a journey I have to take. I don’t know. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.