Why Does God Allow Pain and Suffering?

I’ve been going through some excruciating pain and suffering ever since my beloved husband Chester has departed us over three months ago now.  Actually it really started when he had gotten sick, taking care of him and watching him go through his pain and discomfort, and suffering. That was painful.

The pain hasn’t gone away. Sometimes it’s as fresh as when it first happened. Just when you think the wound is starting to heal a bit and form a scab,it’s just as raw as before. I have learned that that everyone goes through some kind of pain and suffering in their lives. No one goes through life on this earth unscathed. It’s all how we respond to it that determines how we get through our suffering.

For the believer in Christ, we have a hope. He is our helper and will help us through those tough times if we trust Him. Better yet we have the ultimate hope of that we can look forward to when Jesus rescues us from this world into His presence where we will never experience any kind of pain and suffering again. That’s what I look forward to. A time when suffering and pain will be no more. Our suffering on this earth is temporary. It may hurt and hurt bad but in the end God works it our for the good. In the end it will be worth it.

Pain and suffering is not pretty. It’s tough,it’s hard, it hurts (most of the time real bad). It seems unjust and not fair but God is sovereign and allows bad things  happen to us refine us, to purify us, to test our faith, to prepare us for the next life. We don’t understand but He has a plan and we can be assured that He loves and will never leave us nor forsake us.

Hebrews 13:5 King James Version (KJV)

Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

It makes us more reliant on God. Sometimes it is overwhelming and it seems like we can’t handle it. We’re hanging on by a thread. We can’t handle it on our own, it’s only through Jesus that we can handle our pain and suffering. It’s with His help that He will get us through.  We have to take it one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time. We live in a flawed corrupted world and as long as we are on this earth and this earth stands we are going to go through tough times. That’s a fact. One thing to remember is that God does love us and we can trust Him no matter what.  He knows best. He sees the big picture. I still don’t fully understand, perhaps I never will but I do have that hope that in the next life there will be no more pain and suffering. The pain and suffering I’m going through now will be only for a season. When I am in the presence of my Lord and Savior, it will cease.

Job 13:15 King James Version (KJV)

15 Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.

 

2 Corinthians 12:9 King James Version (KJV)

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Sleeplessness and Lack of Appetite

Since this whole travesty started I haven’t had much sleep and I haven’t felt much like eating. I do finally fall asleep watching or listening to a videos about heaven and the new earth and then a couple hours later I’ll wake up. And when I wake up with a feeling of emptiness. I start talking to the Lord and eventually I’ll fall asleep again for a short time. It’s the same cycle night after night. I’m starting to forget what a good night’s sleep is like. I take melatonin which is suppose to help but it hasn’t helped me.

Food and eating?  Don’t get me on that subject, I don’t even think about food. It’s the last thing on my mind. I just don’t desire it. When I do eat I get very full quickly and it makes me feel uncomfortable. I get short of breath when I eat. My stomach is constantly upset and eating seems to make it more upset. I have aches and pains in my entire body. The only reason I eat these days is because my kids harass me and I don’t want to make them mad. Nothing appeals to me. I just feel overwhelmed by everything.

I used to enjoy food. I used to sleep well at night. It’s all changed now. Maybe God will eventually heal me I don’t know but for now this sucks.